a letter for hope

Dear Hope,

Today is 7th of November, do you know what that is mean? yes, that is mean that it is already fourth days after my birthday. I was born in Kebar exactly at Anjai village on 4th of November 1996, one of the special day in my life. four days ago it was a nice day I have to said that nothing special and I was so lonely, I have so many things to say but I afraid that people will think that I am proud of my self. it suffers me a lot my head break out. and then the day after that I make a mistake which so embarrassed I thought that someone was fall in love with me but actually I am not the one there are my sisters at the girl's dormitory that his fall in love with what a bad experience. but we went to an island so I'm comforted there!

 the day after that in the evening my friends were coming and was celebrating it three days after my birthday can you imagine that? I want to celebrate it like the others together in the girl's dormitory. I am deep in sad Hope, they don't like me because I am so proud of my self? or what I don't know but I hate my self because of that. I am not proud of my self I just try to do my best, all the things that I've done I think that is also for they're future.

I miss kaka-kaka Gloria a lot who care about me :(. I hope one day I'll meet them again.